hellofaride

Well its been hell of a ride but there comes a point in a mans life when he just cant go on, and I think I have almost hit that point when it comes to playing for me. This preseason I've been in Los Angeles with Chivas, Ive been in San Jose with the Earthquakes, Ive been in Puerto Rico, and I just got back from Seattle. The traveling has been tough, the weather at opposite extremes, the pitches from grass to turf to dirt and the players from the best in the country to absolutely shocking. Unfortunately for me nothing has worked out for different reasons. Chivas they were stacked, positions filled and I wasn't going to make the team playing left back. San Jose...well in all fairness to me I am waiting to hear back about a contract but its just been too long, but lets be honest. Puerto Rico was close but in the end it didn't work out and in Seattle I sprained my ankle two days into the trial and just couldn't play on.
So now I am back in Berkeley plotting my next move. I could play in the USL2 in Harrisburg, Penn and sign a contract right now but do I really want to do that? Is it time to hang up the boots? Is it time for me to finish my last semester of school, get my degree so I can coach college ball? Is it time for me to pick up a couple youth teams and focus on my new career? I know what my parents would say, I know what my sister would say, I know what my gf would say, but ultimately I need to do some soul searching and figure this one out on my own. I knew that this day would come in my life and I dreaded it more than anything in the world. Does this mean I'm gonna stop playing? Of course not but just not at the level that I see myself playing at. Could I take a year off this season and try to come back next year? A possibility, but would be very difficult to do but not impossible. So as you see this post is mostly a series of questions that I have to ask myself and be realistic about. Only time will tell and that time is coming very soon.